Orthopedic Knee Surgery -Pre-Op

I will be having my long awaited knee surgery tomorrow morning at 8:00 am at Kaiser

Riverside Hospital. I have waited 35 years for this. I was first told when I was in my mid 40's that I would have to have knee replacement but I was too young. I have had rehabilitation on my knee, pain meds, stem cell replacement (which was expensive, but gave me two years) and cortisone shots. After that I have gone to pain management and was put on a walker. Now, at 74 I was ready, but now I was too fat, so I have lost approximately 50 lbs. and at 75, I'm scheduled.

I'm having mixed emotions. I'm excited, but also a little apprehensive. I know it sounds funny, but this is a familiar pain. I've gotten use to it and learned how to handle it. I'm very comfortable with my walker and scooter and operate both very efficiently. These "tools" have also been the catalyst to have the opportunity of turning a disability into an ability. I am able to reach out to people and help them with finding products or services thru our website.

So tomorrow I will be experiencing a "new" pain and face the unknown of recovery and what this next chapter in my life will look like. Although I will be able to walk, will I still have to use the walker becauses my left knee has progressed to the point of needing a knee replacement? If I don't need my "tools" anymore, how will I reach out to people? What will this new chapter look like?

But the one constant in all of this is the knowlege that God is there for me. He has all the answers and I am at peace, because I know that He is carrying me and will reveal His plans in His time. So I go into this surgery with Hope and Certainty that God will provide.